This semester of school has been particularly difficult for me. And, my job is at the peak of it's busy season. So, needless to say, I've been feeling pretty stressed out.
After a few weeks of craziness, seeing myself break down in tears so quickly or making a sharp comment to someone for no reason has led me to think deeply about a few things.
I've decided to cut-back on classes and focus on quality of projects at school. Afterall it's a design degree that I'm studying for. I will practice taking things a little less seriously - and not think that the world would end if I didn't get everything finished at work. And, I will scale-back or stop completely my little "Blinkles" business while I'm in school too.
Of course, the "Blinkles" business includes the little acorn bird's nests and other things I make, and it includes this blog too, which is SO HARD for me to consider that it may be coming to an end. (Especially since it has been a key factor in meeting so many amazing people).
The images you see here on this blog post are taken of a drawing I had done for my final project in Drawing class this semester. It seemed appropriate to share with you not only what I have been working on, but also the 'reflective' quality of the object and how sometimes it takes interesting circumstances to give us a chance to see ourselves and what we are doing. And... it seems like things can turn out totally differently than we expect sometimes too.
When I was drawing this spoon, I had to keep 'turning off my mind' and all those thoughts that were like, "you can't use solid black to show a reflection on a shiny object" to simply take a back seat. I still heard the thoughts, but I kept focusing on each individual shape that I saw in the reflection while slowly connecting it to the next. I only drew exactly what I saw in each small space. Finally, the whole piece came together and it certainly surprised me.
Honestly, I do not know what is to come next. But I do know that I will celebrate it! I will take the risk of letting go of all the work I've done here and allow myself the chance to explore this new avenue that I've embarked upon in school.
In my next (and perhaps final) blog post, I will share about some of the things I will be doing and I will also share some great deals - just for you!
Everything in my Etsy shop will be discounted and I may even include some 'craft packs' full of art supplies for sale too.
This blog and the Blinkles business has been an enormous blessing to me. And, as some of you know, I attribute much of my confidence in moving forward to this very little spot in the world-wide-web.
Thank you for taking the time to read this wordy post and please peek in with me in a couple of weeks to see what I have to share with you!
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First of all, you know how much I love your sketching, you MUST be top of your class because this is absolutely amazing :) I love hearing how you created it too, and what you were thinking.
ReplyDeleteAs for change, only you know what is right for you, and you do what you have to. If blogging has to stop, then so be it, you can always start again later if you want to :)
Blessings, Lynn
I second all that Lynn has said. But I don't want to lose touch with you my friend. Think about leaving your blog intacted and only keeping in touch when you feel like it... I really would miss you, so these are my selfish reasons Janee.
ReplyDeleteAlways Sharon